Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Why no one deserves my vote 8:16 PM

PAP dont deserve my vote this year, its obvious, because they are freakin paying ministers 0.13% of the govt expenditure! You might not think that is a lot of money, but think about how many people can use this money! Those people who need it to help pay for their medical expenses, the needy people who can use it to fix their broken houses, the education ministry to help improve education, and obviously what I'm concerned about, R&D, I'm just listing a few. How many people can this money help! Greedy ministers. I'm totally disgusted. Serving the people should be an honor, it should not be compared to whatever they can be doing in the private sector. Because we can pick anyone to serve us, but we picked you! The honor is yours, we should not have to pay such a huge price for this choice we made.

But again, read this: http://www.facebook.com/notes/joel-joshua-goh/my-vote-counts-10-reasons-why-i-cannot-vote-for-the-pap-in-the-next-election/236626774675

This is why the opposition doesn't deserve my vote too. For the longest time, I could not pinpoint why people who support the opposition turn me off so much. But today, something Weijie said really resonates with me. He said, so many opposition supporters are elitist ignorant people who think they are better-than-thou, that they know so much more than people who are blindly following the PAP governance. Yet, when you pick their anti-government rhetorics apart, it became apparent that all the 'facts' that they speak of so confidently are in truth, fiction. Also, really, do you want Singapore to become a full total democracy? Why don't you live in a totally democratic country like the United States and see how screwed up they are then tell me that again.

Maybe I should not have registered to vote this election.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

8:24 PM

I guess its possible to live with someone and yet feel lonelier than you've ever been. Sigh.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

wuss 9:21 AM

I'm such a wuss I'm the only one in my entire level in my building working today and I don't dare to go pee cos the last time I tried the bloody cubicle next door kept flushing by itself and the tap at the sink kept turning on FML. Then today I kept thinking I hear footsteps and turn around and I'm still alone double FML. And now I don't dare to go into the back room to do the work that I came here to do cos its even scarier and more claustrophobic back there triple FML. Every pindrop will echo across the entire hallway, and the whirring of the machines sound a little like shuffling of feet... or was it really feet shuffling??? OMG! I WANT TO GO HOME!!

Monday, October 18, 2010

bored 9:37 PM

The bf's asleep, preserving energy for an exam tomorrow. Its not my bedtime yet, but gotta turn the lights off cos cannot disturb his precious sleep. Cannot turn the tv on also, for the same reason. What can I do? *twiddle fingers* maybe i should post some overdue pictures on this space.......


nah.. too lazy. God its already fall and I havent yet posted pics from our summer vacation dammit. Nvm.. since I've already procrastinated so long might as well wait till we go for Fall vacation then post together. okay decided. time to chat with random friends who just pm-ed me. much more fun than catching up with readings or posting pics. thanks for reading a very boliao post bubbai!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

shoppaholism 6:38 PM

have you ever had those moments where you see something that looks perfect, its perfect for you, exactly what you're looking for, you can picture yourself wearing it, or in my situation, picture it in your apartment, the exact location you want it, how it would fit right in. I'm talking about furniture by the way. But right after the excitement of finding something so perfect, you glance at the price tag, gasp. And then you spend the next few days, weeks, months trying to convince yourself its not exactly right. Its the wrong size, its the wrong color, its not going to be useful, you don't need it blahblah. But then you keep going back to the shop, just to look at it, just in case, and just so you can further convince yourself its not going to work for you. But it only ends up looking more perfect. And you want to hit yourself for being so dumb and walking back into temptation. And this is how my life had been the past 2 months. Refurnishing sucks. When you have no money. Blah.

Friday, July 2, 2010

9:01 PM

Too many unexpected tragedies this week. Began with the tragic death of a co-worker, cause as yet unknown. The most wonderful person, the most beautiful heart and soul. Plucked cruelly from us. Always putting herself before others. Yet she suffered in silence. One can only take comfort in knowing that she is now in a better place, away from all the physical pain that tormented her while she carried a ready smile, helping everyone out. Came back from her memorial, still seeking calm and finding peace, and was informed of another death, an ex-schoolmate. Such a happy, outgoing boy. My first thought was, this must be a mistake. How can this happen? This cheerful boy, grown to be a fine young man, how can this be true? No way this happened. No way. Then, I realized how much pain he must have felt, such a poor poor tormented soul. If only someone talked to him, if only someone intervened. If only. One can only think of what might have been.

My resolution:
From today, I will work hard to make sure there are no more 'if only's in my life. I will make a greater effort to keep up with friends, I will pay attention and care for people around me, co-workers, friends, family. I will not live with any more regrets. I will do everything I can (hopefully) to make sure everyone is happy. Most importantly, I need to find my own happiness. I need to be happy again. I'm trying so hard. One day, hopefully someday soon, when I smile, when I laugh, it will come from deep within me. Not just something on the surface. I will truly be happy, not just pretending to be happy for the people around me. I will. I believe.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

SOO BUSY! 9:52 AM

I had no time to blog until today... boss was trying to make me rush the project out but then this week he decided screw it.. we're too far behind.. (told you I needed a technician, Boss... all to myself I mean). And he said to think of something new to do or to explore another angle.. I'm working on both right now, from the comfort of home.. Ahhh... can't remember the last time I did not have to go into lab at all over the weekend. Finally got some much needed laundry done, and housekeeping taken care of. Maybe I can even make a nice dinner for myself tonight! Got some readings to do and homework, but hope to finish that very quickly so I have time to do non-work related stuff hehe.

Took a class taught by a world-renowned scientist, and when I compare him to the other famous scientists I have met personally and had a chance to interact with or even just read about from interviews, I realize I see a pattern. These people are risk takers. Like the one who took our class... his pet phrase was "set the world on fire". Judging from the fact that he's the most highly scientist in the world right now, I guess he must have achieved what he aimed to do. If the project is replicating what someone else has already done before in another disease, its not important. And if the project is what someone else can easily do, its not important either. The average number of citations for journal papers in the world is ZERO, so what this means is, these papers have actually done nothing to better the world, because no one else finds the work important. To actually create an impact, think about things that are unconventional, that you're not sure whether or not they would succeed, but if they do, promise high pay backs. It was a really exciting talk, and I loved it precisely because my boss is not a risk taker. I personally would not call myself a high risk taker, but I would love to take calculated risks. And like he said, there are only certain points in your life when you can do that, like when you're a graduate student or a junior post doc, where failure would have little or no ramifications. Like me right now. Hehe... calculated risks. Not stupid risks.

Strangely though, for a world famous scientists whose pet phrase is "set the world on fire" and who is famous for being a risk taker, he is oddly close-minded when it comes to widely accepted theories in science.. is this a case of talking the walk but not walking the talk? I'm sure in his younger days he must have had been a great risk taker.. but right now, I'm not so sure. But after going for his class, I opened up the book Wj bought for me a while ago but I had not had time to read for the longest time, "Apprentice to Genius, making of a scientific dynasty". And just reading it, I found that the great scientists in the book all had the same risk taking mindset. And thats how they came to their greatest discoveries. And this risk-taking value rubs off on their subordinates, people they train. Hmm.. maybe I should aim for a post doc with this famous scientist after all.. and hopefully try to convert him in terms of certain scientific theories that I believe in but not him.

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武林盟主 is this pugilistic genius everyone calls a deranged lunatic. But that's cos they haven't witnessed her great powers yet! She can be regarded as the best product coming from the Pugislistic World in the past 100 years, and 武當, 少林 and 峨嵋 are scrambling to get her to be their 掌门人. She likes think of herself as the next 杨过, 郭靖 or 张无忌.

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Many say she's invincible. But that's not true. Bring a DURIAN in front of her, and she will ditch her sword and raise the white flag. She's still desperately trying to master the 闭气功 so she can overcome this weakness.

She now resides in a tiny little room in a tiny little building in a tiny little university/hospital in the tiny little city of Baltimore, studying her tiny little life away in the hopes of getting some Permanent Head Damage. If you feel you can communicate at her level and wish for her to be your soulmate, feel free send her a note of pugilistic admiration and alliance!